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i’m more frustrated with my generation now more than ever and i’m trying to find that balance to put it into words without seeming condescending or consumed by it. but its sad and frustrating… i gotta move around it, i have to live with it and come across it. because of generalizations… by people who don’t even realize they’re generalizing and don’t even realize they are hindering their own self from that. you’ve lowered your own standards. you’ve been conditioned so much you’re zombies, you think all things that are actually bad for your entire well being everywhere from happiness to health are now acceptable. people are so conditioned they dont even realize theyve accepted that, people are so conditioned they dont see the bad in it and its for some irrational ass reason. that always comes from a place of insecurities and hurt feelings and media doesnt fucking help neither tbh. cause you did everything, like self medicated, or found yourself in revolving unhealthy “relationships” so much, except face your problems, and accept the mistakes you’ve made that contributed to your own pain, you romanticized pain, you didn’t heal right, you didn’t grow right, and your reality became a dark twisted fantasy that you’re now making the norm for everybody, because it is the norm for you, that shit is contagious, this is what everybody in my generation is doing, and i feel like i’m the only one with open eyes. just watching all this bad advice and the worst philosophies from the wrong shit like ig memes and ways of thinking from the worst people who are broken and show it to admire. its contagious and affecting peoples lively hood, literally. its like a disease. its so important to think for yourself today. i know i’m not the only one who sees this. its not coming from a place of trying to be right. it bothers me because i live around it and i see it everyday. I have a conscience and and watching how people my age THINK, is a growing concern for me. its a thing we all live with, so i feel justified in my concerns, you cant live in chaos and think you wont be affected by it, i have, even in my daily interactions with people my age, like theyre either disrespectful and hate women, or hate men or are really naive because of their insecurities.
the song on my page is james blake ft. bon iver - fall creek boys choir
i just realized i probably have the illest t shirt ever. besides the fact that its fucking bob marley and its fucking tye dye rastafarian colors and it looks great. it has fucking tyler the creators signature on it and it was the same t shirt frank liked. ima frank fan.we all know that by now. so .. i dont value objects/clothes but its probably one of my favorite items in my closet. i dont even wear it anymore. ironically, before the carnival i wasnt a odd future fan like that i just went for my nephew, hes a huge fan. sure enough hes like the only person who almost got on stage, tyler tried to help him up but security got him lol, he crowd surfed and got in hella mosh pits. hes 14 im 22 but that scared me lowkey…i feel hella old and concerning and wack for saying that but it was surprising seeing him be a free spirit like that. im glad he enjoyed his self on his birthday, his dad is away right now, when his dad was around he took him hella places, so im like, trying to still continue that bonding experience, cause besides his dad im like the only person he looks up to..anyway. and then he met tyler the next day. but that carnival was dope. ill probably go again this year. i like of now that i seen them live. i just dont like some of the fans who try hard to act like them niggas. idk i dont like posers. wack as fuck. i swear people who are die hard fans for anybody always taint their credibility, just IMO personally. school boy q performed he had like a mini asthma attack damn near mid performance. brand new guys was my shit, i know that song by heart. but everything else was like bleh. mac miller show was cool as fuck but not something youd pay to see if youre not really like a loyal fan of his. cause i dont really listen to his music and i was like “ok this is a nice show but idk what the fuck everybody so hype about this song for”.Then the stage turned red and Kanye west came out. his show was perfect. grass is green. bitches fart. frank sounds exactly like his album live. exactly. hes not a studio artist at all, although ima fan of his, when i watched his live videos on youtube prior to seeing him live, he sounded hella pitchy, so in my mind i was expecting that before he performed..i was wrong. he hit every note. maybe it just doesnt translate well on camera, cause it was perfect in person, and his quality, like the sound of everything was like if you were playing the album. nobody else shit sounded like that. Idk im bored as hell thinking about the last time i actually did something hella fun. im going to vegas in may. cinco de mayo weekend. and then taking my nephew to new york this year. he dont know it yet though.